Every December, I used to do what the personal development industry trained me to do: review the year in terms of what I'd achieved and set intentions for the year ahead. Goals, in the language of the tradition I was trained inside. Objectives with timelines. Growth measured in things reached.
I did this for years. I was good at it. And I noticed, year after year, a pattern I didn't immediately know what to do with: the goals I set in December rarely felt, by the following December, like the most important things that had happened. The things that had actually shaped me — the unexpected encounter, the conversation that changed my understanding of my own work, the quiet period of difficulty that rewired something fundamental — almost none of those had appeared on any list.
I was measuring growth by my destinations and missing the actual substance of the journey.
Several years ago, I stopped.
I don't mean I stopped caring about where I was going. Direction matters enormously — perhaps more than any specific goal. What I stopped was organizing my development around destinations I had imagined in advance, as if growth were a matter of arriving at a prespecified point.
What I started doing instead was simpler and harder: staying in genuine contact with the النَّفْس — the living self — as the year moved through me. Not at December, in a structured review. Continuously. In the pauses between things. In the quality of attention I brought to my own inner life the way I teach my clients to bring it to theirs.
The methodology I've spent years building — التفكير الحسّي, Somatic Thinking — is not something I invented in a room and then went to test in the field. It is something I have been living, iterating, and refining through decades of attempting to apply its core premise to my own experience: that genuine growth begins not with an objective but with expanded awareness of what is actually happening, inside yourself, in the present moment.
The year I stopped setting goals was the year I started taking that premise seriously in my own life, not just my client work.
Here is what I noticed.
When I released the organizing framework of objectives, I did not drift. This was my first fear — that without goals, I would lose direction. What actually happened was the opposite: I became more sensitive to direction precisely because I was no longer distracted by the noise of destination-chasing.
Direction and objective are not the same thing. An objective is fixed. It is the product of what you could imagine at a specific moment in time — and it crystallizes into a target that then filters out everything the universe offers that doesn't fit the target. A direction, by contrast, is dynamic. You orient toward it and then you stay present with what the movement reveals. And what it reveals is almost always richer than what you could have specified in advance.
I also noticed that my presence in sessions deepened. I had been teaching coaches to hold their clients' objectives lightly — to treat the stated goal as a trigger, not a destination — while privately organizing my own professional life around hitting specific marks. The gap between what I taught and how I lived had been creating a low-level friction I hadn't fully acknowledged. When the gap narrowed, something in my coaching became more congruent. Clients noticed, though they usually couldn't name what was different.
The other thing I noticed — and this surprised me — is that the things I would have put on my goal list mostly happened anyway. Not because I manifested them, but because when you stop fixating on the destination and start attending to the quality of your movement, you naturally move in alignment with what matters most to you. The objectives arrive as byproducts. What becomes primary is the person doing the moving.
I'm writing this in December because December is the month we're most susceptible to the old habit: reviewing the year in terms of what we achieved and drafting a new list of things to reach.
I want to gently suggest a different use of this time.
Not goal-setting. Not even intention-setting in the familiar sense. Something quieter. The kind of honest inner listening that the إشارات حسّية جسدية — the physical sensory signals of the body — make possible when you stop long enough to receive them. What did this year actually feel like from the inside? What grew in you that had nothing to do with any list? What direction is your deeper self already moving toward, before the planning mind gets involved and starts drawing maps?
This is the inquiry I'll be holding in the new year workshop — an extended experience of precisely this quality of listening.
If you'd prefer something you can start today, 90 Minutes With Yourself is available now. A recorded experience designed for this threshold between one year and the next — not to help you plan, but to help you arrive.
The new year begins when you decide to be present for it.
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